Crooked Conumdrum

Thu, 13 Jan 2005 01:07:32 GMT

I hereby declare the end of real journalhood as we know it for myself, on this website. I may update, from time to time, if I have any important announcements to make, but other than that, I am gone.
I have created another journal, on another site, in which I will keep a much better formulated, and more truthful journal, out of the veiw of public, and under password, and a different name.
So, goodbye the the Livejournal community, and good health.

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 04:38:55 GMT

What kind of villian would you be?

LJ Username

Gender

Favorite color

Do you root for good, or for awesome?

Your trusted second in command

zac_deral

Your arch nemesis, aka;

dancin_she_elf

Evil appearance

The hardened warrior, you may be evil, but you have dignity and honor. Armed with a sword and an assortment of other archaic weapons, you are a dark blade master, with your long sleeveless coat made of worn material.

What you;ve done so far

By now you have ammassed a great army, all of which are fierce, and powerful. Soon it will begin...

Your evil powers/skills

Charm and trickery. Such as appearing to be someone's friend, only to get some trust, then you slaughter them.

Chances of taking over/destroying world - 37%

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Wed, 24 Nov 2004 04:14:03 GMT

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Moderate

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 03:50:19 GMT

Well, the last four days have been interesting, so I shall subdivide them for your veiwing pleasure (and so I dont jump from day to day.) Wednesday Well, it was a school day. I managed to work my way through it slowly, then once the bell rang I head off to Chinook to meet Megan. Megan is a friend of Kathryn for those of you who don't know, and if you don't care, ignore that. We had plans to watch National treasure that night, but because I had been sick on Tuesday things got mixed around, and she never showed. Luckily, a woman gave me two promo's for the ticket anyway, so I randomely asked a ddr girl if she wanted to go with me. We promptly introduced ourselves, and went to go to the movie only to discover the theatre was full. I put my name of a list for a new pair of promo's and me and Vash(Ashley, the ddr girl) left. After some wandering we ended up at her place where we chatted for a bit. I borrowed some manga from her, hugged her and called it a night. Thursday I had to wake up at 7 today, and head straight out to my dads house. I arrived there by 9:30 and played wtih my little sister for a bit. I arranged plans to meet with my father for lunch, and then sent Beth an email telling her I would phone her once the lunch was done. After the lunch I phoned beth, and eventually she made it down to my dad's house. We hung out and talked, catching up on the past, then lapsed into a moment of passion before she had to leave. (On a observation, I did not really enjoy it. I am not saying she is bad, but I think it is a reprocussion of the incident of Aj.) I got a drive home after dinner, and that ended that day. Friday Back to school again. I doddled through the day, and then decided to head out to chinook after it was over. I wanted to get some ddr in before work. On the way there, I met Rachel, a fellow Scarlettian, and a fellow IGA worker. We both head off toward Chinook, and she decided to join me at the arcade. I ended up skipping work, and we went to The Grudge, and by the time we got to her place it was past 10. I phoned my mom, who bitched at me to get home because I missed work, and after I hung up, I arranged plans to sneak out and come back to her place to watch another movie. I waited for my mom to go to bed, and went back to her place. We ended up watching Up in Smoke, and I got home around 3ish, and of course, I kissed her goodnight(good kisser I may add).

Saturday

I worked until 8, and went home and changed, then came back to meet with Rachel at 9, when she got off work. We went for a walk, then came back to my place and watched another movie. We kissed a few more times (nothing seriouse folks!) then I walked her home, once again getting to bed around 3 in the morning.

Now

I am becoming interested in Rachel now, and it truthfully worries me. I am kinda on ends over the whole Aj thing. Peace.

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 05:59:03 GMT

No longer living, nor have I died, I drift through a mist of memories. Colorful tears stream down my face, invisable to the others as they lead me deeper into the twisting fog. Waves from the past hit me; though pleasant in thought they still hurt. And, as I drift on, I leave a trail of teardrops behind; showing me the way back.

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 22:48:25 GMT

Your Erotic LJ dream by cozzette

username

you went to bed feeling

You began to dream about

dawn_gurl88

who was

causeing you pain (the good kind)

your bed

with

your hands tied

which made you

b for m

but was interupted by

_poisoned_heart

who began to

watch

You awoke

horny

and you hope

that dreams do come true

chance of that happening:: 98%

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Wow, anyone else find it different, that when I enter the same information, it comes up completely different? Perhaps it shows that Rick likes more than just Crystal? Well, I won't jump to such drastic measures as assuming that, but I do find it quite interesting, don't you?
www.livejournal.com/users/soul_sieg/29370.html#comments
The original, as Rick had it... Notice my initial comment I made on it somehow dissapeared?

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 04:07:32 GMT

Well, it is now no secret that I am no longer a virgin. Either you read it in Jason's live journal, or you heard it in person from me, or another source. It has been... 10 days since it happened.
I don't think I will go into the details of what happened, or even a short summary of what happened, I think it would be best just to leave it as it is, and if you require more details (which I would most likely expect you won't want, and won't need) you can ask me in person, or over msn. Few people know the full story, and even more know a distorted representation of the truth.
I for one, regret what happened that saturday night, and if it were possible I could turn back time and change it, I most likely would. (Unless of course, I could only change one thing in my past, then I would most definitly change something else, but that is a whole different story).
I am truely dissapointed that Julien let the story get out, and even more so dissapointed that he allowed a distorted version to get out. I have decided not to extend any more trust toward Julien, though I shall not let that affect our friendship.
I know that alot of people are dissapointed in me for being so slutty, and I apoligise. I was forced into it, but nevertheless, I did consent eventually, and therefore it is partially my fault. However dissapointed you may be, I am most likely moreso dissapointed in myself, to an extent most of you would not even beleive.
As for me and AJ's relationship, we are currently not dating, because of reasons on her behalf. This is another thing I will not bother writing here, nor is there a good chance that I would tell it to if you asked on msn. In reality, we have not really talked well in a few days, and I may phone her tonight, but only to arrange a time when I could talk to her in person, for there is alot that we must discuss before either of us decide if we are going to get back together.
Anyway, the night draws on, and I still have math I must study before the morrow. G'eve to you all, and to all a good rest.

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 20:41:37 GMT

Knight in shinging armor! You're the born hero.
You're always there when a girl needs help but
sometimes you rush from one girl to the next
one and that isn't gentleman like, you know
what I mean?

What kind of Boy are you? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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It is I once again, with an update on my life. On friday I had Kaman and Stephan over to my house, and on the way to my house we met a girl named Ashley (AJ). We talked a bit, then we exchanged numbers on the way off of the bus.
I expected that would be the last of heard of her for a while, but turns out, after just a few moments of being at home, I got a call from her, and she came over as well. While she was at my place we gained an attaction to her, and had a little fun. Nothing big, but fun none the less.
The next day, I worked, and then phoned her, luckily catching her at home. We met up again, hung out at my house a bit, talked a bit, and now we are going out. =S Sorry for bad narration on the story... Really tired, night all.
*note the time lol*

Tue, 05 Oct 2004 03:47:09 GMT

Well, let's see. I am going to start with a rant about rick, and if you disagree with shit all in, the best thing to do is not fucking read this entry, or keep your fucking mouth shut unless you have something intelligent to say.
Well, first off, rick is becoming more and more of a bloody poser, he is now dressing goth-like, and is trying to become wiccan. Rick, if you were stupid enough to read this far, you look like shit dressed in all black, collars do not look good on you, nor does that hat.
Next on the agenda is lies. It does not seem he has changed at all, he still lies constantly, and my step sister is too much of an ignorant twat to realise it. She seems to think that because small portions of his stories are proven to be true whereas really he likes to blow them way out of fucking proportion.
Then of course that brings me to faith. From what it seems the ass hopper we know as Richard is still constantly hitting other girls than my step sister. Also, from what I here it would not be hard to sway his "love" away from my stepsister, and quite frankly I beleive it.
And last off, if either crystal or rick have decided to read this far, I will ask for 4 lines of the wiccan rede recited from memory to be posted on to my journal.
On other news, life seems to be good for me. I have been almost consistantly happy, and I dont think anything could sway my mood. I got ddr extreme on saturday, and though I havent played it much, it is really quite good.
Well I am tired, so that is all I shall post for the night.
Go fuck yourself rick, and seriousely, stay away from me at school. That is a threat.

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 04:15:08 GMT

You're a red lacy bra, Romantic, sexy, seductive,
and tempting.

What type of bra are you?
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Your mind is your weapon, you can do nearly
anything you think. you don't talk much, and
stay avay from people. I have this weapon, like
you, it is useful, but never think that you
can't do something, because then you won't be
able to!

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Hmmm

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 07:34:55 GMT

It's strange now... It seems as if I just changed now. Lately I have been getting worried about people very easily... as if appending doom is aproaching I am seriousely getting literally sick from worry, and it is really strange. It happened once yesterday and once again today... I dont know why though.

Erlak

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 21:47:38 GMT

AHHHHHH It can't be!!! My necklace... It... It... Broke *cries* Erk this is a very bad sign indeed.
Confused as to why it is a bad sign?
Well, all those vows and promises I made, I vowed them on that necklace... Vowing I would not do those things, and that I would wear the necklace to remind myself of those, and not take it off until I was well, sure I wasnt going to do those things anymore.
I had kept it on the whole time... except for showers, and I had not done anything to contradict my vows, and as I got out of the shower today, and went to put it on, it exploded, sending tiny wooden beads everywhere, into the toilet, into the sink, into the bathtub, across the floor everywhere.
I need a new necklace.

Life as is.

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 19:29:49 GMT

Well first off, in relationship news today.
Because of parent descreptencies, and other such influences Kat told Brandon that it would never work between them. Brandon seems dissapointed by the news, but not overly distraught or sad.
In other news, Brandon had his first in-depth talk with Steph in quite a while, and is very pleased to have heard her say that she has noticed a change in him. This makes Brandon a very happy person, though he was slightly sickened by one part of the conversation which made him say "Could we talk about something else?" for the first time he could remember.
And lastly, Brandon has be plauged as of late with strange dreams, in which he would kiss some of his female friends. After becoming concerned by this fact as to why that would be happening he read a dream book and found out it only meant that the kind of relationship they had is changing and that he is coming to terms with that, and frankly that makes alot of sense to him. Thats it for the 1:29 news. G'day internet.

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 23:59:53 GMT

Lets see, to sum up my life at the moment, I am sitting at home, ignoring homework, and feeling sorry for myself because of my looming cold.
This with Kat have taken a turn for the worse. We nearly really had something going, but then alot of things happened, from her mom not wanting her to date me, to her brothers reading my lj and learning that I had a thing for her ect... Plus she just seems to have too much going on in her life or something along those lines.
I don't know why, but it seems relationship just keep getting harder and harder to get off to a good start, and maintain. Before in relationships I have had a tendancy to care about making out, and looks more. But with Kat it has been different. She told me from the start that the chances of me even getting past kissing her were slim, and I really didn't care in the slightest. I liked her for the fact that she was smart, fun, and good with kids. (Strangely that seems to be something that has attracted me lately. Probably because I wish to have kids of my own in the distant future.) Though I am not trying to say that she isnt beautiful, because she really is.
I don't know what initially attracted me to her though. I don't know why but there are a few people that I can just really open up to and talk to without fear or regret. Kat, Julien, and Steph are really the only ones I seem to be able to trust. Perhaps Kaman as well, but I don't think she would have realised that until now.
All I know is that I really like Kat... and that she is slowly seperating herself from mer more and more. It saddens me, but I understand her thinking so I really can't complain.
Peace

Wow.

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 01:23:43 GMT

AHAHAHAHA That person is so perfect for me!!! ^_^ I like the text on it as well lol

Heyo!

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 01:22:24 GMT

You're Ayame - the snake.

Which Fruits Basket Character Are You?
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I am posting this so I an see waht the picture looks like...
I never saw it on the website!

Trajha!

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 02:58:35 GMT

I decided that I am going to wait the month or so to see waht will become of me and Kat. I got to see her at work today, and at first she seemed a little sad, but her mood improved every time I saw her. I was always greeted by a warm smile. She told me it was me and that I somehow just make her happy.
But when she smiled today I realised something I really hadn't before, she is the most beautiful person when she is smiling, her smile is just one of those things that brightens my day, and when I saw it, I couldnt help smiling back.
We both got off work at the same time, and I seised to opportunity to grab my last kiss to before we really just become friends. I really care for her, and she really cares for me, so hopefully things will all work out and with a little time we will actually be "Something."

...

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 04:28:49 GMT

Well, a good day was spoiled today when I got home, and started talking to Kat. She told me she didnt want to get involved yet because her life was really busy right now and she was stressed out or something. She says that in a month or so after things have died down a bit we could talk again but I really dont know.

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 22:31:49 GMT

I dont know why, but I find this song to be very beautiful. It is actually in spanish, but this is the translation to it. IT sounds alot smoother in spanish as well lol.
El Canto Del Loco featuring Amaya Montero.
Puede Ser.

I don’t know if there are friends left
Or if love exists
If I can count on you to talk about pain
If there’s anyone listening
When I raise my voice
So I don’t feel alone

It could be that life guides me to the sun
It could be that the sea leads your hours
Or that all your laughter beats the pain
It could be that the worse is today

You’re born and live alone
You’re born and live alone
You’re born and live alone
Today

I am making my plans
Im starting to know who I am
I am seeking my role
I’m getting in control
They’re playing with you
They’re breaking your love
They’re leaving you alone

You’re born and live alone
You’re born and live alone
You’re born and live alone
Today

Something can get better
I can find something
Something that gives me the breath
That will help me imagine
And I want to make it
I don’t want to remember anymore
Give this moment some time
That will help me get over it
That your feelings will give me

It could be that life guides me to the sun
It could be that the sea leads your hours
Or that all your laughter beats the pain
It could be that the worse is today

It could be that life guides me to the sun
It could be that the sea leads your hours
Or that all your laughter beats the pain
The pain, the pain

Something can get better
I can find something
Something that gives me the breath
That will help me imagine
And I want to make it.

Hello again.

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 19:52:42 GMT

Well, it has been a long while since I updated so I might as well give it a shot.
This summer I have kept to my whole no dating, no fooling around thing until I found someone I really cared about, and finally I think that may have happened. About 5 or 6 days ago a girl started at my work, She was very shy, and nervouse about starting. I didn't really talk to her much when training her, because I am not really good around strangers either.
Nothing really clicked at work, because we were both just kinda nervouse to talk and hurrying to get the training done to go home. The next day though, I was talking to Jen, another girl from work, and she told me that Kathryn wanted my email address. I agreed and she added me... at the time it was about 8:00. We went on talking, sharing experiences and just getting to know eachother till about 1:30, At that point I was getting incoherent and had to go to sleep.
For the first time in the last month I actually slept a good nights sleep, and the next day I talked to her for a bit longer, and she invited me to a movie with her and her friend. So we went and watched Up The river. It was actually quite an amusing movie, and when it ended we all took to the c-train to get home.I discovered I had no way to get on the bus because I forgot my tickets, and I said I would walk, she bluntly refused and paid for two tickets, and I was forced to accept one because she had spent her money on it.
I ended up taking the bus home with her, and we sat in different seats, but she was constantly shivering so I went and sat next to her and we cuddled the rest of the way back. After I got home I went on MSN and we pretty much told eachother we liked eachother, though she was reluctant to beleave me because I was the first guy she ever liked that liked her back.
She also told me I was really the first guy she ever trusted, and had allowed to get to know her and get close to her. The next day (Yesterday) We chatted some more, about relationship and the kind of thing, and after a while we agreed to take a walk.
We walked for a while down large grassy strip behind my house, and soon decided to lay down, we ended up cuddling alot, and kissing a bit. After a while she headed home to talk her dogs before work. After she was done work we chatted a bit and thats about it.
Today, we really got into the topic of an us, and we agreed that we would take it really slow, and start out as friends and work our way into a relationship. I have really already taken quite a liking to her, ad her to me, and I am hoping to see a good relationship in the future.
My Best Regards,
Brandon

ddr max

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 02:47:32 GMT

Got ddr max now me play later today

OOOH

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 20:12:00 GMT

I forgot to mention, two days ago I ordered DDR Max off of ebay.. It should be at my house in 5 days or so!

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 00:13:54 GMT

*parts of this convo are removed, because it is ayla talking, and that is not what I am emphasizing*
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
So you have ddr max up there?
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
yaha
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
okay
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
not like your geting it
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
i know
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
jay is too much of a bitch
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
mwahahahahaha
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
ah i see
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
i already ordered it off the net anyway
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
but technically you rhte bitch cuz your closer to a chick than him right
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
1
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
**
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
!!
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
oooh good one
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
tanx
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
i was being sarcastic... that was really lame lol
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
fuck you
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:

Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
hey jay wants to kno if you have friends anymoire
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
yep
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
**more
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
more then him lmao
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
ya right!
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
lol
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
lets see everyone is pissed at him
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
and not at me
Boiz boiz all types of boiz. Black, white, portarikan,chinese boiz Bad girl XD says:
HA HA HA like who
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
no names mentioned jay
Wouldn't you rather have my children? says:
i know this is jay talking, cuz ayla is alot smarter
Then I got blocked lol
Seems Jay wants to make it so I have no friends anymore, dont think it will work.
Oh yeah, and if you are reading this Jay, I have already fucking tossed your ddr max game case, bitch :P

con't

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 20:37:51 GMT

Oh one other thing.
This is Sasha.*
I dont like sasha.
Sasha dates alot of girls.
He tells them all he love them.
This pisses me off alot.
*Sasha is a generic boy/girl name so i chose it.*
DONT TELL EVERY GIRL YOU DATE YOU LOVE THEM YOU STUPID SONS OF BITCH'S!!!!!!

Alberta beach

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 20:00:58 GMT

Well for the past 4 days I have been up north of edmonton in the charming little town of Alberta beach. Every year i forget how small that bloody town is... I can walk aroubnd the very outer boundries of it in less then 2 hours...maybe even 1 hour.
To put it in short, me, my father, crystal, rick, and my step sis went to my grandmas cabin, we went swimming a bit, i got a bit of alone time to think aobut things and also I smoked up for the first time in a couple months... I really dont get as much enjoyment as you may expect out of the whole experience.
Getting the weed was the real problem, wandering around A.B. until we got to the skate park. thgen we met.... er... i dont remember his name... he shall now be punk boy or p.b. for short. p.b. is cool, he was my connection to meet the guy who sold me the weed, though we didnt even get the weed the day we wantedit from him.
Well enough about that now. I am not sober, and home so that doesnt matter.
On another hand, I have stopped dating for the time being. Some of you may already know of this and to others it may be completely neew news. Here's the way I see it...
I have dated three people in hte past, and i am not afraid to admit that I told all of them I loved them, though I realise now that the only one i truely loved was steph.
Love is a complicated emotion, with some people you may think you are in love (as was the case with katie and erika) when you really are not in love with them... and that is one of the main reason I am not dating anymore. I do not want to date anyone unless i truely see something long term, because i dont see a point to it otherwise.
That leads to the next reson I don't want to date and also why seeing alot of young people disgusts me.
One day Bob and sally were dating.
They had told eachother they "Love" eachother.
Then Bob and Sally get in a fight.
They break up.
After three days, Sally meet Nick.
The next day Sally and Nick hook up.
The day after Nick and Sally say they "love" eachother.
*repeat*
~~~~~~OR~~~~~~
Bob and Sally are dating.
Bob and Sally "love" eachother.
Bob meets Big Bust Belinda.
Bob likes Big Bust Belinda.
Bob breaks up with sally to be with Big Bust Belinda.
Bob tells Big Bust Belinda that he loves her.

You see, it's really pathetic. People our age abuse the word love terribly, confusing it with such things as just likeing a person and lust. That is just wrong in my opinion. To me love is a sacred thing that two people share.

One other thing about dating that bothers me.
Bob meets Sally.
Bob doesn't know Sally but asks her out anyway.

Like WTF? why would you ask out somebody you just met? YOU DON'T EVEN FUCKING KNOW THEM!!!

My two cents, and my resignment from the world of dating for hte time being.
Peace out.

P.S. For those who actually read this, I may update more often now.